In other news, last Friday after my run along South Bank, I entered waterloo railway station as I normally do. The thing about running, is that you become incredible focused. When you're so focused, some facts fall along the way side. Things that you didn't think were important, so they didn't occupy your thoughts; Things like the direction of the escalator you're about to try walk up. Funny thing is, you know the colour of the ladies wrist band as it leaves your point of vision as her arm flashes by or the teeth of a man who's smiling beyond in the distance at his child or the person looking at the train times in the distance. All these things happen, and then those things that you didn't think about start to happen to you.... The escalator was not going down, it's going up; I didnt know that, as I entered it, I violently realised this; everything stops being focused suddenly like you've just been hit, real fast - I took evasive action and fling myself to the adjacent escalator instead. A good recovery I thought. I obviously was too focused, you can get that. It would have seemed funny I suppose and I smiled as I regained my footing while watching a couple beneath me giggling at me and my situation. Tunnel focus...thats what it is, or is it absent mindedness?
I might wrong. Being a man is better than being a woman.
I've not been a woman before so I'm not sure but I can say that from my point of view, men have better lives. That said, I think woman are generally more important than men, especially from an evolutionary standpoint and as far as the human species in concerned. Anyhow. Men, can for example, do more with their lives in the time they have(Well thats my inital feeling anyway) and aren't constrained by being too old to reproduce.( as an aside: I wonder if there is a higher purpose than procreating? And if there really is, thats why humans are here).
If I wanted to travel the world, I could and if I still wanted to at 40, I could. Being a woman, traveling probably at that age means, no children because raising children is a huge undertaking in terms of time & money. There are exceptions where married, parents travel but that's pretty rare. I'm talking generally. I think a woman 'tends' to settle down. Men generally don't tend to. This could be because of the attitude towards woman in the past too but things are changing, but they've not totally changed. Again, a generalisation.
Perhaps this is just my view. Another interesting thing I learnt this weekend is that male and female embryos have the same 'template' for the first 6 weeks of embryonic development - both have breasts. Then sexual differentiation occurs. Funny thing is how we(men that is) keep our breasts, and then don't use them. Anyway, this leads me to think that the female is probably the purest form of human, or the first form, and indeed we men developed from them. Funny that the story of Adam being made from Eve shows this similarity in thinking...
And now another interesting note is how humans have an instinct to survive and to resist death. Why? For example if you were theoretically considering suicide - it's hard. You have to overcome the resistance of survival. Why? We do we resist? Or why were we programmed to resist it? Perhaps that's just because we live and thus should not die. But we do die. Eventually. Why? Why must we live?
Anyway, I read more this weekend about engineering principles and methodologies. Very interesting, particularly in my line of work. I made a whole bunch of notes and drawings all over my text book, it looks like an art book. Also read up on TCP/IP programming. Did all of this all across London. I sat at the Victoria embankment gardens(both of them, on either side). I sat at Trafalgar Square. I programmed my pet project on my laptop. I do love what do with my weekends. I watched Donnie Darko. Something silly also, I learnt that an added benefit of being sober allowed one to call myself a "sober hero" (yes, funny ha ha) - I read that on an advertisement on the train for some a cancer research charity. Speaking of charity, I love browsing the host of local charity stores up the street from me, on the Broadway. I've come to rather like Wimbledon for this and other reasons.
I've been drinking more coffee lately on the weekends. Not more than 3 cups a day. Sometimes I hardly have any during the week. Coffee is a natural appetite suppressant, and stimulant(Thats what wikipedia tells me anyway). I find that around 11am and 15:00 I start to nose dive into my books(I get tired). I'm not sure if it's the gym on a Saturday or the sun on Sunday's... Could also just be the sedated state that being in a quite, serene surrounding while reading, just lends itself to. I dunno. Anyhow coffee helps me throught this. It does cost a lot though, on average £2,50 per cup and even more so if you add a variety or alternative decorations and flavours. My particular is s black, sugarless americano. I find that it let's me focus on the taste.
I walk past Janet Johnson's house, opposite redcross way in borough, on my work. She lived there way back when. Nice place. I wish I lived there; cool warehouse. Bought 3 new things which is odd. 2 polo shirts for work. I want to look smart but comfortable - I'm so over a suit. I prefer a smart golf outfit. The other was a general top.
Thats about it really about me lately.